My Dad passed away 9 years ago yesterday. He was only 39 years old. I was 19. I miss him everyday.
And it just so happened, yesterday, I got hear my new baby’s heartbeat. Such a wonderful sound, especially when it took the Dr. extra long to find it. Doc said it was a little girl heartbeat. Both my boys had little girl heartbeats.
Last Sunday one of the Sacrament speakers spoke about tragedies that happen around Christmas. (It is very common to lose someone around the holidays.) And how we can still learn to enjoy our Christmas’s without that person.
I am not one to dwell on the past. You would hardly know that my heart has a huge scare right across it. I love to think of ALL the things I have instead of the things I don’t. (Except for granite countertops. Can’t a girl get granite! We have the money just not the justification.) Anyways…
I know if I didn’t have 3 little ones, soon to be 4, this holiday would be much harder. But Christmas is for my kids and I completely live through their big wide eyes. I actually love this season and in fact I love yesterday. It gives me time to remember the bad times so I can enjoy these good times.
I truly believe you appreciate the good more when you have lived through the bad. That’s what it’s all about right? I’m so thankful for the little heartbeat I heard yesterday.
.Temple Square.
5 comments:
Thank you for this post. You are amazing. I'm so sorry about your dad. I didn't know. I have some Christmas time trials too and I feel this post was meant for me. Thanks!
I remember your Dad so well! I remember him always cooking... his dinners were always so yummy! And I remember him telling us to go wash the make-up off our faces before we could leave the house... and I remember he was obsessed with baseball as much as my Dad! He was a good man. Thanks for sharing!
aww- I think that scar across your heart needs to ache sometimes. Its good for it.
You really are amazing. I think you deserve that granite :)
Britta- All those memories remind me of ME! "Olivia get that make-up off your face, your're too pretty!" I have turned into my Dad! That's so awesome!
Jaesi- I know right. That was my plug for Tyler to see so he can be like oh my poor wife, all she ever wanted in life was some granite.
I'm so sorry about your Dad, Jamie. I'm so glad that you are able to focus on what you do have and enjoy the holidays with your cute kids. And how exciting you got to hear the baby's heartbeat yesterday!!!
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